First Home… a.k.a. Emotional Rollercoaster!

first homeThis summer will be the 5th year in our home. I truly cannot believe it has already been that long since we bought this place.

I think it is natural to feel a sentimental connection to your first home, I know I do. There are so many memories, so many “firsts” and a few moments where you panic then question if you made the right choice. Purchasing our house was a huge step for us (it is for anyone I am sure!), we weren’t engaged or married and together for about two years. On the edge of our early 20s… entering our mid 20s when we bought our place, we felt young but ready to make this leap! When I say “we” felt ready, I am more referring to Ry being confident and eager with me riding that band wagon hoping he was right. I was terrified and thought we were getting WAY over our heads.

My mother-in-law is a real estate agent, so we were well-informed about the market and in good hands. I know she would never lead us down a wrong path but my over-conservative self was still terrified. We looked at a handful of homes and quickly realized we knew exactly what we wanted. What we wanted was at the top of our price range, go figure right?! The home we bought ended up being my mother-in-law’s new listing and we jumped on it. Very quickly we were first time homeowners and I had all of $15.89 left in my bank account. After we gave our deposit, down payment and paid for our lawyer, I have never felt so broke in my life. I will never forget sitting in my car, looking at the certified cheque then back at my bank statement then back at the cheque feeling a surge of anxiety and starting to cry. I thought I was going to be broke forever and completely house poor! (I know, slightly irrational…)

Almost 5 years later, I can say every is o.k. and we absolutely love our home. We don’t know how long we will be here, which is hard for me. Being the extreme planner I am, not having a plan gives me anxiety and stresses me out. We could be here 5 more years or a few more months, we don’t know. We are flying by the seat of our pants with this one, waiting for a house to come on the market that is a perfect next step.

No matter what happens, I will have a hard time leaving this place and always will have a special place in my heart for our first home. ❤



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